Verse 1

I’m the one they send a pill, just to keep my temper chill,
Frustration fluctuating, they suggesting Seroquel,
Dependent on incessant thrills, measured by my length of will,
If they feeling threatened I just get them to send the bill

My stupid brain it won’t stop, refuse to take that Zoloft
It used to make so lost, renew the pain and go off
Reflection of a primate, depressing is my mind state,
Regret is set on my face, no effect pretend that I’m great,

Harmful to the average man, palm full of diazepam,
If I’ve lost my marbles can we carpool to the savage land?
Startled by my action plan, charcoal in my damaged hands,
This ain’t pass the parcel but can you pass me back a gram?

Mister lacking dopamine, sick of having no esteem,
Kicking back and smoking weed, this friggin daggers poking me
Brains the biggest burden ever, patiently we work together,
At the point of breaking, am I making a diversion? Never

Chorus

If I can’t get sober like you think I can, I’ll jump in front of a moving van
I say sorry for apologizing, and you’ll fuck me off, yeah you’ll fuck me off

Verse 2

A symptom of the former kid I’ve that I’ve been inside
Triggered by the trauma
Mystified, distance eyes flicker by the corner,
Hit the lights
Switching sides till I’m rigamortis,
It’s a vice, sniffing lines just to feel normal
Till I fit in the box that they want me to
But it has been locked don’t know what to do
So I’m hitting the pot till I’m not with you
I know I can stop if I’m wanting to
Found my sense of calm till the charm wore off
What an epic farce, get your arms sawn off
Life is such a task, better start yours off
Picking them apart just to mark your spot

Chorus

If I can’t get sober like you think I can, I’ll jump in front of a moving van
I say sorry for apologizing but you’ll fuck me off, yeah you’ll fuck me off
And if it’s still not over by the time you’re gone
How will I know if I went wrong?
This habit is lobotomizing
But I feel so shattered when I’m not in the state of a dream!

Bridge

Just internalize it till the urge is turning violent x8 (ooowh)

Chorus 2

If I can’t get sober like you think I can, I’ll jump in front of a moving van
I’m not sorry for apologizing but you’ll fuck me off, yeah you’ll fuck me off
And if it’s still not over by the time you’re gone
How will I know if I went wrong?
This habit is lobotomizing
But I feel so shattered when I’m not in the state of a dream!